Playing with electrons

There is no denying the fact that 'death' is a gloomy and depressing topic for almost all of us, and especially during these ridiculously difficult times of pandemic, it is the last thing any of us would want to read or hear about. My intent is not to write about something depressing or pertaining to covid in any way. It's about imagining one's own death, and I've done this many times, years before any pandemic started.  I read somewhere that preparing for death or rather thinking about one's own death helps one live a more calibrated, meaningful and satisfying life.It helps us truly understand the value of 'time', and enables us to appreciate things like love and affection, and the importance of enjoying the seemingly insignificant yet beautiful things in our daily existence which otherwise slip off our notice due to our busy life or because we take such things for granted. Taking one's kid for a walk or having a cup of tea and biscuit with one'...

  During my 10+2 years which ran from July 2002 to March 2004, we had a very interesting person as our chemistry teacher. He would speak less than any average person, and would speak in a soft voice while teaching, a voice that almost bordered on being unclear. But if you would listen to him carefully, you'd absorb some of the finest chemistry lectures. Back in those days, we had to study chemical thermodynamics, kinetics, a bunch of organic chemistry stuff, gas laws and what not. Quite a few students would fall asleep in his class or not pay much attention, given his style of teaching. And if you did pay attention, you would easily learn enough to score very well in the board exams.  His name was Ajay Sahu. His surname notwithstanding, he was out and out an Assamese person, and probably wrote better Assamese than I did! He was bachelor when we were in our 11th standard, and lived in a tiny room of a paying guest or a boys' hostel where he would conduct his tuition* classes in...

 (I wrote this a couple of years back for a sci-fi competition, and no surprises for guessing that it didn't get shortlisted, given its cliched theme. There was a word limit; hence the narrative runs incoherently fast.) Dreamy memories gave an eerie vibe of a simulated reality when I regained my senses after an indefinite time. Two men and a woman in black aprons surrounded me as I sat on a metallic chair in a rather dull room with minimal furniture. They seemed weird because they appeared to be naked but for a transparent wrapping beneath their aprons, and were middle aged, with narrow eyes and small mouths, bald and featureless. They introduced themselves as Dave, Pete and Kiara. I couldn’t recall how I arrived there, and when. I couldn't tell where I was. They looked at me curiously, with anticipation. As my memories started trickling, I narrated my story – to check my sanity and to satisfy their curiosity. I, Agniv, an Indian astronaut, Vyomanaut to be precise, took of...

The mind is so occupied by the news, thoughts and anxiety surrounding the all-pervading covid-19 pandemic that it is almost impossible to think of anything else these days, much less feel the enthusiasm to write about anything. It's like the background noise murmuring in the brain, but this noise is growing so much in magnitude every day that it's starting to corrupt the signals! Every phone call, every little chat, every channel in the TV, every social media post - is all about Covid now, mostly. The brain is saturated, tired and worried by this shit of a pandemic.  And I am lucky. Super lucky. Many of us are super lucky, in fact. We aren't the front-line workers battling this pandemic - we aren't the nurses & doctors, the house-keeping and cleaning staff, the ambulance drivers and the ward guys who work in the hospital and who not only face immense risk to their lives and health but also are working at their breaking point, rendering the noblest service to humanki...